Trigger Warning
My system used to get super triggered this time of year, and as I’ve worked on my healing, it has settled some. Even with healing, I still think praying and taking an offensive stance is so important for survivors warring against the darkness during this time.
I’ve always been drawn to the full moon, and I thought it was because it is beautiful. I saw it as a reminder of Yahweh’s completion of all He has done and is doing. It reminds me of the things He has accomplished in my life, the way He is always shining just the right amount of light on something that I need to see and how He does that in stages until I get to a place where I can come full circle with my understanding.
I did not understand that feeling like I wanted to climb the walls to release the anxiety and chaos that always happened on these ritual days had a long-established cult history behind it. I remember about 5 years ago; I had just moved so I was at the laundry mat washing clothes, and I suddenly forgot how to do it. I didn’t know where I was or how to get home because I suddenly switched to a little part in the laundry mat. Thank goodness for helpful friends that could guide me. But I thought I was just triggered by seeing someone that reminded me of my grandfather. Even though I was only at the laundry mat, my energy was filled with confusion, anxiety, fear, and at times panic. All the cult needs is for me to come out of peace and into these strong emotions so that they can siphon them for their rituals. While they do call many back to physically participate and others in the spirit realm, they also use the energy of presenter parts who are not yet able to stay grounded in the peace of Yeshua on these days.
I did not know anything about Beltane or that it applied to me in any way at all. I thought all the crazy things that were constantly going wrong were just my lot in life. It felt like chaos always followed me and every little task was like climbing Mount Rushmore. That day was the first time anyone had told me about the rituals happening on May 1st. I studied and learned how to battle the warfare, how to start praying against it and steps to take to protect my system as I continued to heal.
It was very eye-opening to realize that while not every single thing that goes wrong is an attack from Satan, that many of the patterns in my life were indeed from my programming running and all the dark holidays were something that I was unknowingly participating in through the spirit realm. They have probably stolen enough of my energy to power New York without me ever having a clue.
I’ve learned the hard way to be proactive in preparing for these dark holidays and how important it is to have a safety plan in place of how I will navigate it and fight to stay grounded in my body and not have parts going in the astral realm to participate in rituals.
Yahweh created the moon, its beauty and purpose and we can choose to thank Him for it. To praise Him for the times and seasons and to cover these days in the protection that only comes through applying the finished work of the cross and the blood of Yeshua. We can take back what Satan has perverted and possess the gates of the full moon according to Psalm 24, Isaiah 26:2, and Colossians 1:20.
We also need to allow Him to search our heart and show us our open doors and repent for the sins that allow the enemy access to us. We can pray and ask Him to contend with the army of Satan who is coming against us and that He will rescue and save the children from being a living or non-living sacrifice for their rituals.
One thing I’ve spend much time working through is repenting, overcoming and breaking off the role of being the black sheep and a sin eater in my family. We are not asked or required to take on other people’s sin to release them from their consequences, but many survivors have been programmed to do so. Beltane always reminds me that we do not have to live that way anymore. We can come against the heighted witchcraft activity happening this week and pray that the results will not find a place to land in our system or territory.
We can release false responsibility which is a big way that they call us back for rituals. This can be the year that we let go of the guilt and shame. We can ask Yahweh to forgive what is ours and release others to Him so that He can hold them accountable for their sin in whatever way He knows is best. We no longer have to play our own judge, jury and prosecutor to keep ourselves safe. It’s time to start trusting that Yahweh can do a much better job than we ever could.
We can declare that we are coming out by His mighty hand. We can renounce and break ties with the fire god, Baal, or Molech/Nimrod (the sun god) also known as the roman god, Saturn (Satan/Devil). As the cult demands sacrifice on this day, we do not have to fear, engage or be passive because of our trauma and programming. We can call on Yeshua and follow the leading of the true Holy Spirit by aligning our actions with the truth of the Word and the Character of the One who loves us most of all.
It is no surprise to me that social media says there is unusual wildfire severity for this time of year or that its being described as a potentially severe wildfire season nationwide. Nothing is new under the sun, and do we really think the enemy is going to waste their loss?
For more information and how to pray on this ritual day, click the link to check out Amanda’s prayer below.