I’ve been sorting through layers of deception for years, yet I still learn something new every day. From the first time I heard the term cult loyal part, I thought of pure darkness, an evil I didn’t want to touch. It felt like a force outside of me, something that would take over if I … Continue reading Witchcraft and Magick
Month: October 2025
Halloween Memories
Halloween feels different this year. I was six years old the last time I had this level of gut-wrenching dread leading up to October 31st. I wasn’t allowed to choose my costume that year. I had to be a nurse, 'a real nurse', they said. I wore my mom’s pin, her cap, and a scrub … Continue reading Halloween Memories
A LOVE LETTER TO MY CULT LOYAL PARTS
Hi there, There is so much that I wish I could tell the world about you. I know how they look at you, blame you, detest you, and reject you. I see how they cross the street if they see you walk their way. The sidewalks are not big enough to hold the truth. So, … Continue reading A LOVE LETTER TO MY CULT LOYAL PARTS
Working Through Programming Triggers
When a survivor tries to leave, starts to remember a memory, gets a big breakthrough, or starts to integrate parts of themselves, all hell tends to break lose. Programming can get activated without the survivor's knowledge, and the script will lie to them non-stop until they can recognize it and replace it with the truth. … Continue reading Working Through Programming Triggers
I Came to Say Goodbye
I came to say goodbye and to say thank you a hundred billon times for loving me so much. This is my last day here as this me. I am 8 years old, and tomorrow night I will become a grown up. I think I have done all of my work here now because I … Continue reading I Came to Say Goodbye
Walking With the Wounded
She never told me she that she cried or how she spent sleepless nights handing her worry for me back to Yeshua again and again. There was no evidence that the lukewarm coffee on her desk was her third cup that day. It was over a year before I realized that she only snacked during … Continue reading Walking With the Wounded
Not Your Average High Ritual Day
Every corner holds a shadow, every creaking floorboard echoes fear, and the air is thick with memories I’ve long tried to bury. Sometimes the rooms are darker than I imagined, the doors are locked, and parts have been left behind. To top it off, it's almost Halloween and high rituals are happening in unison all … Continue reading Not Your Average High Ritual Day
Redemptive Gifts
For many SRA survivors, their presenting parts are not connected to their spirit. One way to know if you are disconnected from your spirit is if you cannot hear Yahweh’s voice. Another way is if you do not know about any of your programming or have your memories because your spirit knows all. It is … Continue reading Redemptive Gifts
A Mundane Sunday Until…
Have you ever had a dream that you knew was so much more than just a dream? I don’t usually remember my dreams very well, but when I do, they are packed with weirdness and information. Last night’s dream was no exception. It was a warning from the occult. I am not naïve to how … Continue reading A Mundane Sunday Until…
When You Can’t Rescue Them
It can feel impossible to let go of a part of someone else’s system that you have grown to love, but it is not safe to let them stay. Even if they are little, scared, and begging to stay, they need to go back to their own body. Survivors have often taken a part of … Continue reading When You Can’t Rescue Them