One of the most common programming structures is The Wizard of Oz. It has many layers and this is only a brief overview of part of what it can mean for a survivor. I’ve struggled to know if I should share it and landed on “you shall know the truth and the truth shall set … Continue reading The Oz Characters in Programming
Month: November 2025
Happyish Thanksgiving
The cold water bottles in the fridge were only slightly cooler than room temperature. The melted ice cream filled the tray it was in. My daughter was almost in tears at the sight of one last thing going wrong today. Standing there, holding containers of food meant for tomorrow, the weight of it all hit … Continue reading Happyish Thanksgiving
The Hidden Access Point in My Home
Some things from our past feel so precious, so sacred, that letting them go seems unthinkable. I wanted to cling to objects that held comfort, safety, or connection in a childhood where so little felt safe. But sometimes the things we hold onto the tightest are the very things the enemy uses to bind us. … Continue reading The Hidden Access Point in My Home
When Trauma Lies, Wisdom Tells Me the Truth
There was a time in my healing when I thought wisdom meant figuring everything out and trying to outthink the programming, outpace the memories, and somehow piece my life back together. But Scripture doesn't describe wisdom as something intellectual we obtain by researching everything we can on the occult. It's not piecing together clues to … Continue reading When Trauma Lies, Wisdom Tells Me the Truth
The Human Spirit
Yahweh has been highlighting the importance that our spirit plays in healing. I wish I had known when I first started my healing journey that calling back the split off parts of my spirit and helping them heal would completely change everything. Less pain, less time, less mess. I recently had the privilege of witnessing … Continue reading The Human Spirit
The Kundalini Spirit
“See to it that no one takes you captive through philosophy and empty deceit, which depends on human tradition and the spiritual forces of the world rather than on Christ” Colossians 2:8. Many believers genuinely love Yahweh and live faithfully committed to Him, yet still find themselves unknowingly bound by the Kundalini spirit. It’s subtle. … Continue reading The Kundalini Spirit
When I Need Forgiveness too
Forgiveness is hard for everyone at some point in life. But for survivors, it can be excruciating. Especially at the beginning. Especially in the middle of healing. And especially when the deep, deep memories surface down the road, the ones that expose the truth of what really happened. It’s just hard. For a long time, … Continue reading When I Need Forgiveness too
Finding Truth in the Chaos
I’m not sure there’s such a thing as internal chaos until we truly start to heal. There may be chaos on the outside with life spinning in every direction, but inside, unless your programming has begun to break down, everything feels ordered and “normal.” That’s because the chaos and turmoil we experience on the outside … Continue reading Finding Truth in the Chaos
Recognizing Cult Loyal Patterns
Psalm 51:10 – Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me.I am always asking Yahweh to search me and show me the things that need to change. Some are things I simply hadn’t recognized, and others feel as if they could steal the very life out of me. A lot … Continue reading Recognizing Cult Loyal Patterns
Standing My Ground
Weapons are drawn and the battle is raging, but the war is already won. There is no coming to agreeable terms and laying down of weapons in this fight. There is life and there is death. The choice is yours. If it is unacceptable in your sight to serve the Lord, choose for yourselves this day … Continue reading Standing My Ground