One of the hardest things to untangle in healing is the almost truth. I do not mean an obvious lie. Obvious lies are usually easier to recognize once we have enough truth and safety around us. The almost truth is harder because it carries just enough reality to feel believable. It has enough evidence attached … Continue reading The Almost Truth: When Trauma Fills in the Blanks
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The Day Sara Explained Why Her Treasure Box Was Never Empty
The first thing Sara noticed about the meadow was that the air felt alive. It wasn't cold or windy, but definitely alive. It moved differently there, thick and soft against her skin as though the atmosphere itself carried love inside it. Every breath filled her tiny lungs so deeply she thought she might burst into … Continue reading The Day Sara Explained Why Her Treasure Box Was Never Empty
Integration Didn’t Make Me Instantly Functional
A lot of professionals talk about integration as though it is a clinical endpoint or finish line survivors are supposed to strive toward until we finally arrive at healing. I have seen multiple therapists in my lifetime, and in one way or another, they all seemed to build a treatment plan that led toward this … Continue reading Integration Didn’t Make Me Instantly Functional
The Baby in the Hole: A Case Study on Integration
It is always a victory worth celebrating when a core part of a survivor’s system is finally able to see truth, receive healing, and integrate. The road to that moment is steep, and it is lined with tripwires and booby traps designed to make you fail before you ever reach the other side. The work … Continue reading The Baby in the Hole: A Case Study on Integration
This Is What Healing Did to My Bible
I grew up in church, went to a Christian school off and on throughout my childhood and I've read the Bible cover to cover many times. Yet, when I started getting memories and my parts started sharing their stories about what happened to them, the Bible changed for me. It reads differently now. The living … Continue reading This Is What Healing Did to My Bible
Shattering the Occult Matrix: A Romans 12 Pathway Every Survivor Can Walk
Shattering the Occult Matrix: A Romans 12 Pathway Every Survivor Can Walk There is a lie that a lot of survivors don't recognize that they carry, and most of the time it didn’t start with them. It was built into them, both by the lack of knowledge of the church and their programming. The lie … Continue reading Shattering the Occult Matrix: A Romans 12 Pathway Every Survivor Can Walk
What I Learned About Rest That Changed Everything
Early in my healing, I enjoyed ongoing fellowship and community with my church family. Then I started seeing a lot of signs that someone on our worship team was unknowingly in the occult and my system started breaking down at church. When I could no longer control the switching, I overheard a lady telling the … Continue reading What I Learned About Rest That Changed Everything
Drinking From a Stream of Living Water
Learning to discern truth, trust His voice, and follow His timing in the middle of healing. I haven’t had time to write, but I’ve learned so much over the past couple of months. The more I learn about the spirit realm, the more I just want to stay hidden under Yahweh’s wing. I keep asking … Continue reading Drinking From a Stream of Living Water
Was The Matrix Trying to Tell Us Something? Awakening, Deception, and the Search for Truth
What if the reason The Matrix felt so unsettling when you first watched it is because it touches on a question every human being eventually asks: What if the reality I see isn’t the whole story? For many people, the film is simply an iconic science-fiction movie. But for me, under the action scenes and … Continue reading Was The Matrix Trying to Tell Us Something? Awakening, Deception, and the Search for Truth
Tearing Down Walls: A Journey to Healing and Connection
There were walls built inside me long before I ever knew what to call them. No one could point to them from the outside, but inside, they were thick, reinforced, and necessary. Growing up surrounded by darkness, control, fear, and spiritual distortion, those walls became my way of staying alive. They held back memories. They … Continue reading Tearing Down Walls: A Journey to Healing and Connection