One of the hardest parts of healing is learning to recognize what you’re actually feeling. As survivors, we’ve spent so much of our lives disconnected from our emotions that when they finally begin to surface, it’s easy to lump everything together. If I’m crying, I’m going backwards. If I’m overwhelmed, maybe I’ve opened a door. … Continue reading Learning the Difference Between Godly Sorrow and Fear That Leads to Bondage
Month: June 2026
Is This Abandonment, or is an Old Wound Speaking?
I've been pondering all the times in my life when I wasn't expecting a big change and got blindsided by what I never saw coming. It felt like the floor fell out from under me and there was nothing that I could do about it. Sometimes it was my fault and sometimes not. It's like … Continue reading Is This Abandonment, or is an Old Wound Speaking?
A Watchman in My Own System
I had vision a few days ago of a weathered home with the doorway still open behind them as several disciples stepped back into the dirt road. The air felt heavy, and I knew it was because the message they carried had not been welcomed. They had come in obedience, ready to speak what the … Continue reading A Watchman in My Own System
Surviving the Summer Solstice
The summer solstice has passed, and when I first started writing this post, I was thinking about what it usually costs me. A few months ago, a core part and her subsystem integrated. Since then, I been holding tightly to something that might not seem like a big deal to most people, but it feels … Continue reading Surviving the Summer Solstice
When Gratitude and Loneliness Coexist
It’s been such a big transition with the most recent core part and her whole subsystem integrating. There’s a big difference between a part that has been split off of a part that split off of a part and a core part that holds so much essence, along with all the memories and emotions that … Continue reading When Gratitude and Loneliness Coexist