I came to say goodbye and to say thank you a hundred billon times for loving me so much. This is my last day here as this me. I am 8 years old, and tomorrow night I will become a grown up. I think I have done all of my work here now because I am not scared to grow up anymore. I am a little bit very sad because I don’t know if everyone will love me the same. Georgia say being a grown up is good and I might get hid in her a little bit. I will still be in there and you can still give me hugs even when she have her touch me not days. I telled her to keep my Boaz bear forever and please don’t let her throw it away because he is a very good listener and she might need him one day. My heart is thinking about when we went to the beach in the condo and you found me a sand dollar, and a starfish and we ate yummy food and played in the big waves and remember when we go to the spa and get a facial and the lady got scared and not know what to do when we dissociate? And we go to the ice cream place with the rocking chairs and they make us real ice cream with the dry ice and can you still take us there when we are grown up? and the French bakery and that noodle place where we can eat outside. I will still like all the weird foods when I am a grown up too. Remember at the lake beach and we got stuck spinning in circles with Wonderer and when you take us to the movies together? those are very good memories and I still miss her. And when you rescue me out of that big mirror when they pulled me in there and you take the whole closet doors off so that don’t happen again and when we go to the airbnb with the swimming pool in the house and we go to the big congregation there and have that special meal and that was very very very fun and we ate at the park for a picnic one time with miss Brandye. Can you tell her that I said goodbye to her if you get to see her again and she never telled me bye. Remember that big giant at the campground with the alligators that you take a picture with and we still have it with us and we sang all those songs and make strawberry smores just for me? And remember when I pray for you and we pull that bad cord out of your back and the mean girl not get your energy no more. I am glad yeshua took her away from hurting everybody. He is very good to keep you safe and make the bad people go away. and remember when we go on the trip to get our paper from the court house and we go to the day care and get all our parts unstuck from there and pray over the whole ground and take it back and we go on the train tracks and get all those parts at the woods? Remember all the nights I sleep at the lake and swimming in the lake and our birthday there and you get us a new doll and that girl come up in the boat and Georgia get so embarrassed? And you make me strawberry shortcake with the candle and we stay the whole day together? And remember when we go to the biocharge and learn about the table and then we go eat the yummy beet salad and Georgia think it taste like dirt? We have a whole lot of more memories and Georgia say we have to go to bed soon so she can work tomorrow. I don’t know if I can sleep because my joy bucket got spilled over and it is filling up all the space in here and even the sad has joy but I will try my best. Remember when you tell Georgia all the time to get out of the way and I like it when you do that and I hope she can’t get in my way after I am a grown up. I love you all the way to heaven and back and you are my favorite but you have to share that spot with yeshua and that is ok because I am his favorite too. I hope you are right about all the things and I will get to be with Georgia in the front all the time now and that will be very good because the shadow hand can never grab me again. And thank you the mostest of all for helping me find the true yeshua and get rid of the fake one by the tree that made me hide my bruises. If you are maybe wrong and I am not here no more then it is ok and I am trust yeshua and I will tell you all the things you miss when we are in heaven together and Eden just now say we love you too and we will tell you all of our stories too but I don’t know that boy playing with her. And I love you always and always and always. C.J.H.
p.s. Georgia got some of the joy spilled on her sadness too