Psalm 51:10 – Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me.
I am always asking Yahweh to search me and show me the things that need to change. Some are things I simply hadn’t recognized, and others feel as if they could steal the very life out of me.

A lot of programming behaviors look like doing life on life’s terms. They’re the everyday things we’ve always done without questioning why. The things that look normal to the outside world and even bring comfort to our internal systems.

For example, the things we do to self-regulate when we feel agitated are not always healthy. Sometimes, those patterns are actually behaviors programmed into one of our back parts and disguised as our own choices. Start asking Yeshua to show you what things you’re doing that are still tied to your programming.

Survivors have to take a deeper look at things and take everything to prayer. One of those things for me was calling my mom. I would call her any time anything in my life changed. If I met a new friend, started new classes, started seeing a new therapist or had a doctor appointment scheduled. Then I also called after church on Sundays, and she always asked about my plans for the week.

I especially called her when I was overwhelmed, and I always felt better afterward. My system would calm down, the anxiety would stop, and I would feel reset and able to face the rest of the day.

But the reality was deeper than I understood. That sense of urgency to call her wasn’t natural, it was created by a cult-loyal part whose job was to report back. When it was time for them to “check in,” they would create chaos in my emotions and body to make sure I complied.

If I called her on my own, out of routine boredom, their mission was complete and my day went smoothly. But if I didn’t, I would start to feel “off.” Restlessness, then anxiety, then full-on distress with emotional flashbacks I couldn’t trace.

This is what makes it so difficult for survivors. The behaviors look normal. The world applauds them as healthy habits or family connection, but underneath, it can be programming still running in the background.

The fact that they use things that society labels as normal is what makes it so difficult. We don’t know how to identify these things unless someone teaches us. Therapists will give you a solid explanation for your meltdowns and teach you coping skills, but they either don’t know about SRA to explain what is actually or happening, or they are cult loyal and trained to keep your programming running smoothly by giving you suggestions that never work long-term. You cannot use coping skills to solve a root issue. They are helpful while you are working on your healing, but they should never be the end goal. You must address the problem at the root and show the parts who are reporting back that they are actually hurting the system instead of helping them.

You have to show them the truth. Help them understand that they have been lied to and manipulated and that by doing their job for the cult, they are hurting people including themselves. Start praying that Yeshua will prepare them to hear the truth and to soften their heart so that they understand the changes they need to make. Remember to ask Him to prepare you too.

Some changes are incredibly painful, and it will only be possible through a personal relationship with Yeshua. It’s not fair and it makes you want to kick and scream against everything, but it’s the truth. Some things just hurt that much. I sometimes think it would be easier to do anything at all than what is being ask of me, but I know that at the end of the day, Yahweh’s ways are higher than our ways and He has the best possible plan.

If you are a survivor or SRA or mind control programming, you will always have cult loyal parts who report back until you have healed and helped them heal. You have to come to terms with the fact that they did not put all the time and effort into what they did and then leave any loose ends. I am 5 years into dismantling my programming and I am still discovering new layers that have not been dealt with. It goes so much deeper than even most survivors understand. You can’t know what you don’t know, but someone in your systems knows it and it’s so important to start asking Yeshua to help you face the truth so that you can heal.

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