I’ve been sorting through layers of deception for years, yet I still learn something new every day. From the first time I heard the term cult loyal part, I thought of pure darkness, an evil I didn’t want to touch. It felt like a force outside of me, something that would take over if I got too close. Basically, all the things Hollywood horror had taught me to think. I had no idea how deep it really went or that it was hiding inside of me, buried behind amnesic walls.

It wasn’t comprehendible, much less relatable. What the occult has done to children is worse than anything any of us can fully understand. Using fallen angel knowledge, they’ve created a bottomless pit that’s still being dug. Those amnesic walls were built for one simple reason—survival.

I never want to minimize the seriousness of the matter. Cult loyal is Satan loyal, period. Witchcraft is never acceptable to a holy God, no matter what reason lies behind it. Whether it’s magic wands and potions, or manipulation and twisting of Scripture to meet our own needs, it will never belong in the life of a believer. It’s like a toxin in the bloodstream spreading quietly but lethally, corrupting everything it encounters.

But part of the reason it took me so long to accept my cult loyal parts was because all the focus was on the occult, serving Satan, attending rituals, astral projection, hurting others, and being “too dangerous” to be around anyone safely. I didn’t have any awareness of any of these things. I had never even heard of SRA until 5 years ago. Most of what I learned in the beginning came from a mother of darkness pretending to be a ministry leader and my spirit was utterly crushed by the way she treated me. I had no idea how deep the infiltration goes or how far the occult will go to discredit any genuine healing opportunity and make a survivor feel crazy.

There’s so much more to the story and a thousand better ways to explain it than what I experienced. I say all the time that Yahweh wastes nothing. From my experience, I gained a deep compassion to teach survivors that their new assignment is a rescue mission. They need to understand that their cult loyal parts are not inherently evil. Most of the time, they were small children bound up in the evil that was done to them. They deserve to know the truth and the truth will set them free.

Presentation is everything.

We must choose our words carefully when introducing someone to the concept of having parts that are cult loyal. We cannot throw around terms like cult loyal or dark parts without significant explanation and expect anyone to understand what that truly means. I get it that this topic is deep and layered; I could write a hundred posts and still not cover it all. But when we focus solely on the “cult” part instead of what was done to an innocent child, we create fear and shame where there should be compassion and understanding.

We need to paint a full picture of what we mean when we say someone has cult loyal parts or that they’re still in the occult if we truly want to show them the way out.

Yesterday, I got to see a new perspective of what witchcraft and magick meant to a cult loyal part, a glimpse of what it looked like from the inside. To them it was normal, it was serving God, and it was safe.

Case Study:

Susie showed up for her session after spending much time in prayer. It was evident by the results that she had spent time in the courts of heaven petitioning for freedom. She had anointed herself with oil and was willing to hear whatever needed to be exposed for healing to occur. This prepared the way for a 12-year-old cult loyal part named Amy to step out from behind the wall. Being born into the occult, Amy did not have a true concept of the evil she was partaking it. It was all she had ever known, and she had been taught that she was serving God by doing what she was doing. Susie learned that Amy thought Susie was the one making dangerous choices by taking them to a session for healing.

Amy had been trafficked since she was a baby and was placed and raised in a family who would pass on the mantel of a druidess priestess to her. Amy also had Christian programming, so she thought that she was doing God’s work, but she was following what she had been taught in the Rainbow Girls club and by her owner who was a member of the Eastern Star. She grew up in church and was on a mission for God. Amy was conjuring up spirits and doing all kinds of witchcraft both internally on her own system and outwardly. Nobody had ever explained to her that she was in a false religion. Susie learned that Amy had been doing witchcraft on their body for years then leaving the body and living in a castle in the astral realm so that she didn’t feel the consequences of the witchcraft. Amy had also been trained to present as light to fool and manipulate Christians.

Lies were identified and replaced with truth including the lie that Amy was an astral child which made her very special because she didn’t need to live in a body. She was told that she was chosen out of all the children to have this unique role and being able to live in a castle in the astral realm was an honor and privilege. She was taught that part of what made her so magical and special was that she could use everybody else’s body to obey the orders she was given (the evil she was doing) then she could get away without being punished.

Amy started to panic as the ministers explained the truth to her. She started to realize the weight of some of the stuff she had done. She had always felt so powerful doing it and now she had to face the truth of her guilt. She had never questioned or fully understood what she had been doing. Survival mode and the scales over her eyes kept her blinded to what Satan was requiring of her. It was the only life she had ever known.

The magick that used to swirl around her like armor faded away, and in its place stood a child who was no longer strong or invincible. She was a broken, scared, hopeless twelve-year-old girl, desperate for help. Truth strips away the illusion of control and reveals the humanity buried underneath the programming. The moment pride gives way to fear is when the heart becomes reachable. And in that space, where deception stops and pain finally speaks, YHWH begins His work of redemption.

Susie and Amy went together back to the memory of sitting in a sub shop owned by the woman who bought Amy. From there, Amy chose to forgive, repent, and come out of agreement with contracts, dedications, cult bonds, vows, rituals, twinning, spells, bills of sale, trades, voodoo, magick, and more. Amy gave up her demonic giftings and asked for the damage she did with magick to be reversed and restored. She repented for the attacks that she had been sending against her own human spirit and the parts inside her system. She went to the courts of heaven to present her case and received a verdict of forgiven and not guilty through the blood of Yeshua.

Today, Susie reports that she feels as if a void she felt her entire life is filled with fresh hope. She feels more alive and the world feels more real. She states that Amy is staying huddled close to her taking in all of what this life now holds for her. Susie is excited that Amy is learning how to walk in true power, the power of prayer, the power of love, and the power of the Holy Spirit. Together, they are learning how to be a true warrior in the Kingdom of God.

When asked if she had any advice for other survivors, Susie said, “Don’t be afraid of your cult parts like I was, don’t wait so long. They are hurting and scared under all those dark layers, and we need to go get them. I was so scared of them for a long time, but after I prayed before my session, I knew I could do it.”

Before Amy was trafficked out of her country, she was simply a baby girl with a mother who delighted in her. Her mom kissed her forehead and gave her the precious gift of a mother’s love. Amy had a twin sister, bonded in the womb by an inseparable love that should have been one of the sweetest parts of her story. Instead, it became her deepest wound. At only two years old, that bond became shattered in a sacrifice to Molech that Amy had to watch.

Susie learned that Amy desperately missed her real mom, the one who had loved her before the cult mother raised her with hatred and spite. That revelation explained so much. Susie had always felt misplaced in the family she grew up in. She was raised with who she thought was her twin brother, yet she always sensed that something was missing. She knew there should have been a connection, something deep and familiar but no matter how far inward she searched, it was not there. Susie reports a newfound comfort in knowing that her real twin, her twin sister, is now part of the cloud of witnesses cheering her on as she continues to heal.

This is the humanity we must remember when we speak of cult loyal parts. They are not monsters or villains. They are fragments of someone’s story, carrying unbearable loss, confusion, and longing for love. When we forget that, we stop seeing the child behind the programming. And when we remember it, we make room for redemption to do what only Yahweh can do: restore the humanity that trauma tried to erase.

So, as you read this, pray for those still trapped behind amnesic walls, those afraid of what they might find inside. Pray for those still loyal to darkness without realizing that loyalty was forced on them through double binds and a need to survive. And pray for the ministers that are helping survivors walk their system through healing. Cover them in intercession because Yahweh proves again and again that no amount of darkness is too much for Him to heal. All praise and honor go to Yahweh as He continues to do miracles to set the captives free.