What if the reason The Matrix felt so unsettling when you first watched it is because it touches on a question every human being eventually asks: What if the reality I see isn’t the whole story? For many people, the film is simply an iconic science-fiction movie. But for me, under the action scenes and … Continue reading Was The Matrix Trying to Tell Us Something? Awakening, Deception, and the Search for Truth
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Tearing Down Walls: A Journey to Healing and Connection
There were walls built inside me long before I ever knew what to call them. No one could point to them from the outside, but inside, they were thick, reinforced, and necessary. Growing up surrounded by darkness, control, fear, and spiritual distortion, those walls became my way of staying alive. They held back memories. They … Continue reading Tearing Down Walls: A Journey to Healing and Connection
The Day I Climbed into the TV to Find a Family
The TV hummed before it glowed. That’s how I remember it, not just turning on, but warming up, like it was waking up. The screen flickered blue, then gray static, then alive. I would sit cross-legged on the floor, close enough that the static buzz filled my ears and the light painted my face. Behind … Continue reading The Day I Climbed into the TV to Find a Family
Do Cults use Tattoos to Control People?
Tattoos can be used as a way to assign identity, signal belonging, rank, or loyalty. You can see this in gang dynamics, extremist groups, trafficking networks, and cult structures. In trafficking rings, tattoos are used for branding to make it easier for the buyers and sellers to recognize human trafficking victims. Symbols placed on the … Continue reading Do Cults use Tattoos to Control People?
I Could Not Call Him Father
When I first started healing, I could not even think about my dad. It brought so much pain and loss to the surface. I don't know what I wanted or expected when I first listened to the video at the end of this post, but it certainly wasn't the emotional reaction I had. Nonetheless, it's … Continue reading I Could Not Call Him Father
Can My Parts Hear Me Talking to Them?
With dissociative identity disorder (DID) that developed outside of SRA or mind control programming, parts tend to be able to hear each other much easier. They have a much less developed internal world without the bombs and traps that send survivors spiraling when set off. The front presenter part can still go for years without … Continue reading Can My Parts Hear Me Talking to Them?
The Kundalini Spirit
“See to it that no one takes you captive through philosophy and empty deceit, which depends on human tradition and the spiritual forces of the world rather than on Christ” Colossians 2:8. Many believers genuinely love Yahweh and live faithfully committed to Him, yet still find themselves unknowingly bound by the Kundalini spirit. It’s subtle. … Continue reading The Kundalini Spirit
Witchcraft and Magick
I’ve been sorting through layers of deception for years, yet I still learn something new every day. From the first time I heard the term cult loyal part, I thought of pure darkness, an evil I didn’t want to touch. It felt like a force outside of me, something that would take over if I … Continue reading Witchcraft and Magick
A LOVE LETTER TO MY CULT LOYAL PARTS
Hi there, There is so much that I wish I could tell the world about you. I know how they look at you, blame you, detest you, and reject you. I see how they cross the street if they see you walk their way. The sidewalks are not big enough to hold the truth. So, … Continue reading A LOVE LETTER TO MY CULT LOYAL PARTS
Redemptive Gifts
For many SRA survivors, their presenting parts are not connected to their spirit. One way to know if you are disconnected from your spirit is if you cannot hear Yahweh’s voice. Another way is if you do not know about any of your programming or have your memories because your spirit knows all. It is … Continue reading Redemptive Gifts