How do I know if I’m avoiding the harder things or asking myself to do something I don’t yet have the support to get through? I can want healing with everything in me and still not know how to take the next step. We know programming lies to us, so before I decide that I’m … Continue reading Navigating Healing: Questions to Ask Yourself
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Recognizing Healing: Signs and Reflections
How can I know that I am healing when there are still things I struggle with and things I am not ready to face? How do I recognize the progress I have made when something gets hard again, and denial kicks in or I start questioning whether anything has actually changed? I feel like this … Continue reading Recognizing Healing: Signs and Reflections
Marriage to the Beast Annulment Petition
TRIGGER WARNING: Tomorrow is September 7, and for a lot of survivors, it means our system is on high alert right now. On satanic calendars September 7 is known as the Marriage to the Beast ceremony. I am not going into the details of the ritual, but I want to talk about the aftermath that … Continue reading Marriage to the Beast Annulment Petition
Kingdom Fall Documentary: A Survivor’s Perspective
If you are a survivor, counselor, mental health professional, wait...if you are a human being, you need to see this documentary! I've been trying to figure out how to put into words what it was like to watch Kingdom Fall, a documentary created by Tom Dunn of Through the Black, premiere at the Counting the … Continue reading Kingdom Fall Documentary: A Survivor’s Perspective
The Day a Cult-Loyal Alter Couldn’t Touch Me
It can get incredibly scary when you have back parts that are cult loyal and, as the front presenter part, you desperately want to have a relationship with Jesus but can't connect. There are seasons when His silence seems to engulf the loneliness you can already barely tolerate, and fear pushes its way into every … Continue reading The Day a Cult-Loyal Alter Couldn’t Touch Me
When Access Is Hidden Inside Something You Love: An Excerpt from My Forthcoming Book.
The following is an excerpt from my forthcoming book, Blessings in the Battle: A Survivor Companion for Healing from SRA and Mind Control Programming. The book is still in development, so the final published wording may differ from this preview. I wanted to share this chapter excerpt because survivors can become overwhelmed by the fear … Continue reading When Access Is Hidden Inside Something You Love: An Excerpt from My Forthcoming Book.
Don’t Lose the Battle for Your Soul
There is a massive attack on ministries that come against the occult and try to help survivors heal. My life has not gone untouched by the serious accusations being made against both well-known and unknown people in this blood-soaked battle. I’ve watched people from all walks of life wield their words like sharpened weapons, forged … Continue reading Don’t Lose the Battle for Your Soul
Learning the Difference Between Godly Sorrow and Fear That Leads to Bondage
One of the hardest parts of healing is learning to recognize what you’re actually feeling. As survivors, we’ve spent so much of our lives disconnected from our emotions that when they finally begin to surface, it’s easy to lump everything together. If I’m crying, I’m going backwards. If I’m overwhelmed, maybe I’ve opened a door. … Continue reading Learning the Difference Between Godly Sorrow and Fear That Leads to Bondage
Is This Abandonment, or is an Old Wound Speaking?
I've been pondering all the times in my life when I wasn't expecting a big change and got blindsided by what I never saw coming. It felt like the floor fell out from under me and there was nothing that I could do about it. Sometimes it was my fault and sometimes not. It's like … Continue reading Is This Abandonment, or is an Old Wound Speaking?
A Watchman in My Own System
I had vision a few days ago of a weathered home with the doorway still open behind them as several disciples stepped back into the dirt road. The air felt heavy, and I knew it was because the message they carried had not been welcomed. They had come in obedience, ready to speak what the … Continue reading A Watchman in My Own System