One of the first things that I was taught when I stumbled into the world of SRA was that you cannot control who someone is connected to and what they choose to do with that relationship. The word "handler" means something entirely different to the outside world than it does to a survivor. Part of … Continue reading Navigating Relationships After SRA: The Undoing of Trauma Bonds
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Don’t Lose the Battle for Your Soul
There is a massive attack on ministries that come against the occult and try to help survivors heal. My life has not gone untouched by the serious accusations being made against both well-known and unknown people in this blood-soaked battle. I’ve watched people from all walks of life wield their words like sharpened weapons, forged … Continue reading Don’t Lose the Battle for Your Soul
Learning the Difference Between Godly Sorrow and Fear That Leads to Bondage
One of the hardest parts of healing is learning to recognize what you’re actually feeling. As survivors, we’ve spent so much of our lives disconnected from our emotions that when they finally begin to surface, it’s easy to lump everything together. If I’m crying, I’m going backwards. If I’m overwhelmed, maybe I’ve opened a door. … Continue reading Learning the Difference Between Godly Sorrow and Fear That Leads to Bondage
The Almost Truth: When Trauma Fills in the Blanks
One of the hardest things to untangle in healing is the almost truth. I do not mean an obvious lie. Obvious lies are usually easier to recognize once we have enough truth and safety around us. The almost truth is harder because it carries just enough reality to feel believable. It has enough evidence attached … Continue reading The Almost Truth: When Trauma Fills in the Blanks
ACCESS, AGREEMENTS, & AUTHORITY
There is a truth that is rarely named, even in spaces created to help survivors heal. I don't think it's intentional, people just don't know what they don't know. The danger in this is that the Word tells us people perish for a lack of knowledge. It's our natural parental instinct to love our children … Continue reading ACCESS, AGREEMENTS, & AUTHORITY
Holiday Grief
Grief during the holidays is the hardest of all, and for many survivors, it can hit with a force that feels impossible to explain. Everywhere you look, there are decorations, lights, and cheerful reminders of a season that the world calls joyful. You just want to buy groceries, and suddenly you're surrounded by garland, ornaments, … Continue reading Holiday Grief
The Trick or Treat of Fasting
Trigger Warning. This is important information but let me start by saying I am NOT recommending that survivors fast early in their healing and definitely not in preparation for Halloween. The high rituals have started and will continue for 2 weeks after Halloween. The atmosphere is the heaviest I've felt it in a long time. … Continue reading The Trick or Treat of Fasting
Soul Trading Markets
Trigger Warning: this is an intense post and discusses children being tortured for the purpose of creating soul parts. A follow up to my recent post on soul trading, is the even more sinister use of labs to split children and program individual soul parts to use, sell, and trade on soul trading markets. Soul … Continue reading Soul Trading Markets