Here is a question another survivor asked, and every survivor eventually has to face: What happens if you know you are experiencing witchcraft, but you don’t realize that the source is you? What happens if you ask God to send it back to the sender, only to discover that you are the sender, and you … Continue reading Why “Send It Back to the Sender” Can Backfire
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Holiday Grief
Grief during the holidays is the hardest of all, and for many survivors, it can hit with a force that feels impossible to explain. Everywhere you look, there are decorations, lights, and cheerful reminders of a season that the world calls joyful. You just want to buy groceries, and suddenly you're surrounded by garland, ornaments, … Continue reading Holiday Grief
A Month of Stretching, Shifting, and Seeing Yahweh Move
It has been a crazy month so far, the kind where you blink, and suddenly it’s three weeks later, you’re living on caffeine and grace, and Yahweh is whispering, “Keep going. I’m doing something.” So, I wanted to pause and share an update and give you a peek into some of the things happening behind … Continue reading A Month of Stretching, Shifting, and Seeing Yahweh Move
Denial Programming
Fear drives denial. There are moments on the healing journey when a memory surfaces, and almost instantly something inside begins to push it away. Suddenly you feel confusion, resistance, or an inner “No, that didn’t happen.” Coming out of denial is terrifying because it can feel like you will be out of control, go crazy … Continue reading Denial Programming
Healing Anger and Rage
I rarely meet a survivor who has a balanced relationship with anger. In the beginning, most either feel nothing at all other than numb, detached, and compliant, or they feel too much rage that comes out as explosive, consuming, and overwhelming. The middle ground is nowhere to be found until there is a deeper understanding … Continue reading Healing Anger and Rage
What Nobody Told Me About Body Memories and Panic Attacks
In all those years of traditional therapy, all those methods, all those appointments… no one ever told me this: You can soothe the nervous system and regulate your breathing. You can stretch, walk, float, detox, and ground. You can journal and process what you remember, and all of those things can be really helpful and … Continue reading What Nobody Told Me About Body Memories and Panic Attacks
The Oz Characters in Programming
One of the most common programming structures is The Wizard of Oz. It has many layers and this is only a brief overview of part of what it can mean for a survivor. I’ve struggled to know if I should share it and landed on “you shall know the truth and the truth shall set … Continue reading The Oz Characters in Programming
The Hidden Access Point in My Home
Some things from our past feel so precious, so sacred, that letting them go seems unthinkable. I wanted to cling to objects that held comfort, safety, or connection in a childhood where so little felt safe. But sometimes the things we hold onto the tightest are the very things the enemy uses to bind us. … Continue reading The Hidden Access Point in My Home
The Kundalini Spirit
“See to it that no one takes you captive through philosophy and empty deceit, which depends on human tradition and the spiritual forces of the world rather than on Christ” Colossians 2:8. Many believers genuinely love Yahweh and live faithfully committed to Him, yet still find themselves unknowingly bound by the Kundalini spirit. It’s subtle. … Continue reading The Kundalini Spirit
When I Need Forgiveness too
Forgiveness is hard for everyone at some point in life. But for survivors, it can be excruciating. Especially at the beginning. Especially in the middle of healing. And especially when the deep, deep memories surface down the road, the ones that expose the truth of what really happened. It’s just hard. For a long time, … Continue reading When I Need Forgiveness too